I breathe ,I feel , I live

I had to give away my courage and strength

And adopt vulnerability and fear

I had to stop giving and start receiving gracefully

I had to make friends with my smallness

I had to stop seeking and start giving

I had to draw on my own wisdom 

I had to throw clarity out of the window

And make peace with confusion and chaos

I had to give up the need for beauty and perfection

And love my inabilities and ugliness

And now I breathe ,I feel , I live ...